dear blog

Dear Blog,
A lot has been happening. I promise to take the time to write in you this weekend.

Love,
Malinda

I seem to always fall for the (seemingly) unattainable men... Why is this?

thin thighs and heart disease

http://health.yahoo.com/news/healthday/thinthighsmightbeharbingerofheartdisease.html

Looks like I'm doing all right. :)

my heart is still beating

I promise that I'm still alive. I have much to write about. I just haven't been very good with getting my thoughts out lately. Mostly, because I've been trying to avoid them.

Someday soon, I will post about the happenings of the past 4 or so months....

summer

Dear Summer,
I want to start over. It's been too stressful. I'd like another shot to enjoy you. I shouldn't have come home.... life would have been easier if I had stayed in Utah.

Love,
Malinda

guys and sex

Being a guy is a pretty lame excuse for always thinking about sex. When did society decide that it's OK for guys to be that way. I seriously want to go back in time and change all that thinking around. Treating a girl like a sexual object because your mind is "wired that way" doesn't make it acceptable in my book, regardless of what society says.

I'm done. D-O-N-E done with guys like that.

my vent on attraction

I have a lot to blog about (I'm super behind) but I'm really sleepy. It's waaaay past my bedtime. So for now, I'm going to blog about one thing: dating and self confidence.

I'm not sure if anyone remembers my vent about the blind date I was set up on and how my one preference (when it comes to appearance) for dating is that the guy's chest not be bigger than me (in a non-muscular way). If you know me, that leaves some pretty decent room for the guy. Anyway, I was beginning to feel like I was never going to be able to date someone I was actually attracted to. My self esteem spiraled downhill. Then, right before I left to come home, I met Donanciano, a fantastic guy from Mexico. Then, my first full day back in PA, I took my car to Jiffy Lube to get it inspected and one of the workers hit on me and asked for my number. I went out with him last weekend and am going out with him again this weekend. He's just so good for my self esteem right now. He always calls me gorgeous and beautiful. And while, I know that a lot of that is just sweet talk, the fact that a good looking guy like him even wants to go out with me has made me realize that I don't need to be the thin white girl to be beautiful. It's just really opened my eyes. Just because I'm overweight, doesn't mean that I need to be set up with the socially-awkward overweight guys. I am worth waiting for someone I am attracted to.